We lost each other.

im sorry that im no longer your happiness neither are you mine anymore. i dun think i caused this. you are far away now. last time even though in school we dun really talk, you talk to me on msn, or maybe I TALK to you on msn and then we talk about our heart feelings. but now, if you are gonna blame me for not talking to you anymore, im sorry, but i dun bother about it already. if i dun even have half or less than half of your heart wanting to talk to me and you dun bother, why should i bother. no, i dun wan to lose you as a friend. first thing that comes to my mind if i wanna go out with somebody would be you. but i will skip the thought. 

i dunno if this is a past tense already but, you WERE my greatest friend.

and now number one friend in my heart is kinda empty. 

cuz i cant decide btw my choir mates and classmates friends. choir mates i dun confide into them though.

you know you cant expect everyone to stay the same. if you really appreciate them and wan them to stay in your life, you accept the change. if you cant accept the change and you choose to leave, then fine, no one can stop you. now i feel a LITTLE empty without you REALLY 'in my life' anymore, i hope you feel the same. but i doubt so.


cheryl, look around you. you do not live in a world with only a small group of people. what about others. they are not there for you to walk by after a few words. what about sarah and sandra, dun talk about the BOY, if its jealousy, i think its an excuse.


just a reply to your blog again and what i think. 
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ltr gonna meet up for lit proj. die died dead. i just cried in my dream last night. cant really rmb what happen, but, ohwell, its been a long time since i had a dream that could make me really cry and wake up with tears. 


at least it shows my heart is still working (:

Selfish slut.

tuesday : 

WE HAD  PIZZA CUZ SYF GOT GOLDWITHHONOURSSSSSSS. THEN PLAYPLAYPLAYPLAY HEHEHE. I LOVE CHOIR SECTWOS. <3 . left school already then went starbucks drink white chocolate mocha :3 . WANDERFULL.

wednesday : 

stayed back with AI WU JI WU HENRY to do earth day banner HAHAHA. fking funny. then fking high gloss paint sticky lyke shyt and wun come off my hand ): around 9 then reach home sia </3 tired dai.

todayyyyy.

choir was crazyyyyyy. but wasted 2hours for speech day rehearsals. slacking is (Y) . laughed lyke crazy, dk why i only can high with choir friends, not classmates D: . classmates i always lyke laugh at different things from them. zzz. 

haha, i love choir naoz <3

some people i just cant stand/understand.

fml

Friendship is like standing on wet cement, it's hard to leave after sometime and you can't leave w/o leaving your footprints behind.

im sorry, all i can say is that, you were once the icing on top of my cake. you complete it. but then you left. and it was lyke my cake was left exposed, naked and vulnerable. 

some points ( replies ) to your blog post. i dun wanna question what you think and stated but well ..

okay mix and match, you sure its mix and match? im sorry i dun see it btw you and kayyee. im not saying anything between the lines okay ? you should know it yourself.

okay what words came out of my mouth ? i just always dun understand you. at one point, you dislike, at another point you lyke. maybe you just ain't settled.

i realise, when we CHOOSE the date 01 , first , one , it was just superficial. cuz the numbers were nice. but now i think back, i wanted you to think of me FIRST, come to me FIRST, and you were ONCE my first. but i realise since im not your first, im wasting my effort. 

i'd rather go to sandra, really. you wun start the conver unless someone starts it, as my fb status says, i cant always be waiting for you to start right, but i am honestly getting fed up, BUT OH WELL. ITS OKAY.

'' ITS OKAY '' , thats what you always say right ): . when we talk to you about how we feel, as in about our clique things, you always say. ITS OKAY. you really think its okay? 

im tired, and im not gonna stir trouble. so i'll shutup after this post.

forgiving. 

 THIS MORNING

woke around 9 am then wake father up ! going woodlands gym hehe. i thought gonna take train in the end, my father say run there LOL. i halfways die alr. omg the gym fun sia. hehe. tired max then just now fell asleep <: HAVEN DONE ANY HOMEWORK YET NOR STUDY. CLASSTESTS COMING ):

Say cheese.

tired. mother is pissing me off. trying not to lose my patience. this sucks.