It takes a boy you really love to make you cry .

javierohzixiang i miss you lyke fkzxc !

tmr jiu already 2 weeks never see you ! ):

HAI , BOREDZ NOW . STILL HAVE CHEMISTRY TEST TMR , HAVEN EVEN STUDY, LMAO . IMMA DIE .

SEE I SO GOOD , I DONATE , BUT ACTUALLY IS MY DAD'S MONEY LOL .

yesterday went city hall with laopei , see i so good girl ^^ . cuz dad at city hall le , then i wanna go bras basah . then finally found a suitable diary scheduler thing ! cuz this year lyke too many things , seriously need something to organise things ! $40 ZZ . BRANDED BOOK MANZ . cuz cover made of leather , daddy agree to buy for me , hehe , so happy . then he ownself buy a cheap de less than 10 dollar de , omg so guilty . then went city link walkwalk , HAHAHA . wanted buy assessments but was thinking go back woodlands then buy cuz i got discount voucher at home , in the end , wanted to go home rest a while first then take voucher out to buy , laobu say expire end of dec last year , i was lyke wtf la , then she kp us , say what we dk hw ask first meh , NVMS .

today went chin hong house with sarah and bailin  , bailin look funny , his shirt too long, his pants too long, his socks too high LOL .okay , huida din come cuz he sick . when chinhong house do the rich fest geography thing , slack more than work . AS EXPECTED . then watched the vampire's assistant . V NICE SHOW K . HEHE . kk then wanted go shopping at lot1 , then cotton on din have the design of the top i wan , i think out of stock cuz other colours have ): planning to buy tmr ! jav was at amk , i was hesitating whether to go and find him , hmm , in the end never find , went slack with kaijun and his two friends . JOKE SIA THEY . thn got some taiji , shan't say here . (: 

around 8 took train back to admiralty from cck :D . cuz next day still got school then got the stupid test ! ): . jav whr are you again nowz ? fall asleep ? msn status busy ley . 

some people are meant to fall in love , but never meant to be together .

swee bo ? 
found this generator thing on google . 
cuz i was doing the back of the class tee , so i suggested barcoding . now waiting for responses from classmates whether they wan individual barcodes or everyone same . but did up everything le . printed all 42 barcodes . last two is 205 and mdmJ . 


hais .

don't stand there and watch me fade .

today went to buy oktea with tingying lianzhi zhenyu and yiting . then ate fromage with tingying . spicycheesefries = (L) .  eat until around 3pm , cuz left school late . me goodgirl , do my sweep floor duty which i haven done for around 2 weeks+  . kk , a lot people had cca today , then kayyee wanted to eat alone with cheryl , said she wanted to talk to her . hmm . okay . so i went with tingying and gang . talkedtalkedtalked . got quite fedup with some people in our class . xialan much , show attitude . come only , lol . why my class , everyone no problem , only my clique always wil start dislike people. aiyo , v xinku . 

have i really admitted & accepted .

i dunno why . i now really v xin tong . 

lol , i realise i have been keeping too many things to myself , i have the feeling im gonna explode because cheryl's not online for me to rant at ): . neither is sandra . the feeling of exploding . is lyke a mixture of tears , and uncomfortable-ness .

seventh's . 

we dun have much memories together . 1week plus since i saw you . hmm . i still think i dun fit in with you . nor your friends . you belong to the xm that group . and shirley jevin they all . maybe joey should be rightfully your stead . i dunno la . lol . yeah , you're not what i thought you'ld be lyke . but i feel so tired . i dun wan lose you , but its so tiring . mentally . and my mental tired-ness is making me physically tired too . i choose to believe you k . i choose to believe that , when she held your hand , you did not wan her to . but you just held on because it was lyke just her few days out and you wanna make her feel better . i believe that , you really dun think im extra and im a burden . i believe that , you dun think of me the way your friends do . i believe that , you really wan to be by my side when i reallyreally need you , but it's just you're busy and you can't pei me .

i believe that , you love me . cuz you do , right ? 

i guess i should hold on. 

i'll hold on until i'm so weak and shag that i have no choice but to let go .

ily . 

I am ready to say goodbye. I still love you more than ever.

when you said it , i was lyke orh . but inside . i was stabbed .

eeyer . i sad ley . you say they say i childish . ): . i paiseh all this ma . i go find you all slack , i feel damn awkward la . wtf . hais . ): . 
talked to yong on phone . he so funny . omg i missed the times with him last time . ohno , i can't go and think of him too much .

You didn't even notice i was gone .

OMG , i have been eating so much this month ): cfm gain weight . D: ! february must eat lesser , save more money le . eew . 

 I WANNA GO SHOPPING , SERIOUSLY .

WEAKPOINT ):

haihai peepos . some dumbass blame me for not updating my blog , in the end he also never update . hmph ! okayokay . hmm . today suppose have choir . then i said i doing class deco will late , around 4.10 decided to go . i goodgirl never pon ^^ . during sectionals i keep run off find liangkuok ernest chinhong they all , LOL . too bored . then dun wanna sing , and voice cmi , totally . hmm . slackslack . then now still flooded with homework . #R$#!$@!# . next monday and tuesday got chemistry and math test . fk the school ! spoil me chinese new year ): . after chinese new year still got moremoremoremore test to come . saddiewo . im lyke officially pok kai now k . zomg . z . 


p-p-p-poker face ~
random much :D . 

quite long ago pic o; . i look chubbily-fat . tsk .

i seriously have a feeling my legs are getting thicker . bad sign ): . needa cut down on things i eat . omg i SEEM so weight conscious but i still eat & eat & eat . hais .
aiyoooo , sarah ah . you angry at cheryl and kayyee ? you okay a not . dun liddat la . sandra dun keep thinking you left out la . wei shen mo wo men mei chi zhe yang de .

I'm leaving cuz you never ask me to stay .

the icecream pretty anotz ?!

today at school canteen buy de ! hehe . :D . nice ley . vanilla + chocolate . omg i eat so much recently cfm gain weight ): 

monday 

hmm , dun rmb dunno much , but ate with eric for lunch at amk . ask javier come he say he grounded . eek . YOU GO OUT ALSO NO ONE WILL STALK YOU AND CHECK ON YOUR RIGHTZZZ ? okay , ate sumohouse . he treat me ! HEHE . free lunch ! then slackslack awhile . zomg , his friend so funny , lyke so scared of him . HAHAH . LAUGHDIE . 

tuesday .

choir , kinda slacked . no voice . taugh jasmine , sec 3 , she transfer from softball to choir cuz she sensitive skin or smth . hmm  , i sing dao voice crack , omg gg . 

today . 

finefine . hmm , after school went with cheryl to sumo house and she paid 3/4 of my meal HEHEH . ily . :D . then we talked for lyke 1 hour plus . omg so fun . hehe . scared manymany things . hmm . she's my safekeeper for my inside thoughts and secrets :B

msn conver with javier so imba , i so imba.   EH IMY LA . meet up soon ley ? dun lazy text ! what kinda excuse is this ): only when i online then we talk lots  then i say wan call you , you say you wan sleep awhile ! -'- 

ohno , i should not be talking to you so much ): . but you sit beside me , what choice do i have , ): ! feels so wrong .

should i turn a close eye on you ?

ytd after extra choir practise went cwp find parents to eat lunch and go popular buy some stuffies then daddie say eat swensens ! HEHE .

 the soup of the day i have no idea what is it but its nice , LOL . 
drank halfway then take :B

ME SALMON AND MUSHROOM PASTA . (Y) . i spammed cheese and chilli powder , hehe .

single scoop icecream , din wan to eat too much , hehe . sticky chewy chocolate = (L) .
sorry for noob quality pics , dk whats wrong with my phone .




okay , im gonna take it as nothing happen . after i got backfired , kinda , idk  . but i really zzz already . sua i give in , everything is my fault now okay . i dun bare any more hate . what can i do ? im seen as the bully already . but really , who started it . hais .

another issue .

hais . who to believe now la ? 

you know , i got things i wan to tell you . 

i dunno whether you worry about me when i dun reply you , maybe cuz i always will reply , or maybe cuz you dun even check your phone . so it means nothing to you , but i do worry 

when i say text me when you're free , inside i am itching to text you cuz i know i miss you 

sometimes i really can't stand the wait then i will just sms you . why always i start first ? ):

i still think we belong to different worlds , i wun know what you're doing etc , i dun feel secured nor safe . i feel extra sometimes you know . aiya , maybe im just your burden that you still have to take care and care for . why you dun wanna tell me anything or what has happened or what you are thinking ): . whywhy . why do i have to find out from other things other than you ? 

爱一个人太多有错吗 ? 

Based on psychological study , a crush only last for max 4 months , if it exceeds , you're already in love .

Sometimes , that girl who seems so strong , who never lets what people say bother her , who smiles and laughs with her friends all the time , is really the girl who , deep down  , is falling to pieces .

Kisses blown, are kisses wasted.  Kisses aren't kisses, unless they're tasted. But kisses spread germs. And germs are hated.  But you can kiss me, baby. ♥ I'm vaccinated. im plain bored , on fb like page for few hours already , got ten homeworks to complete ! fuckmylife , tmr morning still got choir practise 5 hours , omg , imma die , then maybe afternoon go find pt they all slack , hehe . im damn broke now ): . money fly so fast . i still hate you all man . hais .

knn .

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school . ; i miss you ):

omg , i can tell you school sucks ttm . fking clique, sua . i dun wanna care anymore okay . -'- . leekayyee , you dun gimme that black face of yours and stop diaoing me in school okay , you wan quarrel anything not happy tell me in my FUCKING FACE YOU FUGLY BITCH . at least sarah and sandra still talks to me nicely lyke nothing has happen . shyt you -.-

ytd went hougang plaza pool , went in classtee and fbt but still look lyke i came from sch cuz i wearing white shoes and bring bag ,LOL . nvm , played quite a few rounds with nugget and hubby , lala . cant rmb whether i got win a not . then around 5 plus his friend pick up his phone ask me go void deck slack in the end i never go , i dun belong lo ): lyke so extra , even if he's there . hais . imh ):

anyway today start sch at 8.30 so im still here at home :/ hmm , damn tired , got swollen eyes . today got projectwork right in the morning !$!#$!#!@#!R%$@%$ . gonna leave house now , bye !

i think of you too much , more than i thought i would .

camp cultura . lunch at east coast . lala .

lycia's chihuahua cookie ! super cute okeh ! v small size , hehe .

gonna go school now , din even bother to tie hair first . today gonna be late home again . sunday monday tuesday all reach home either 7+ to 8+ tired max . today gonna go plaza pool again , take shirt change , lazy go home . pool make me pok kai , whatever , ytd at school phone tio confiscated , until end of school then can get back , first time i pay so much attention in class and so diam , wtf lo . zzz . 

bye !

stop making me feel so tired , hais .

pool !

today went lycia house , played with her dog , omg so cute , but keep lick me LOL . then did some proj .
then went hg plaza pool. omg i won nugget . hehe ! blah , update another day . nights !

If only you knew how much i think of you .

ohno , its emo me again (N) . no mood sia . omg . still got homework . omg x5 .

The weirdest thing happened to me the other morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and i knew i must of been dreamimg of you again.

is it really me thinking too much ? ):

campcamp .

zz . just read blog . paused my player . then continued , and the song lyrics went , and i was lyke OHOHOHOH . wtf . i already . sian diao . totally .


12jan first day of camp (:
lala . omg my class highed a lot . surprised me sia ! i thought we not high one . did silat , wushi and indian dance .  lol . omg almost all the instructor praise us . *happy* . keep doing cheers . keep shout . but haven sore throat ahaha ! after lunch had the amazing races. 20 stations , run lyke some mad woman with nathanial , ken mun - my bra , lianzhi and zhenyu :D . had fun lo . some idiot took bra's bag . cuz both crumpler , look the same . lol ~


13jan second day ~
went out of school from 9+ to 3+ .
fun ley :D . went to the malay heritage centre first , primary school that time go before liao O_O . then the eurasion community smthsmth . junaidah keep flirt with the larry angmoh . gou nu ! cuz larry not married~ . its lyke damn yuck lo . she scold me for keep talking and laughing then keep show me black face , talk to him keep smile . wtf . bias , as always . went east coast for lunch . 1 hour lunch , finish in 5 minutes . lmao . then went beach there with huida chinhong and tingying . its lyke damn far from where we stopped our bus okay . eek . took pics . omg yay yay . later or next time i post . hehe . then went sri ajnsjkn euvbe temple ( dk how spell ) tingying suddenly rmbed a stupid bet , got me inside de . virginity thing -.- . lol ! but keep laughlaughlaugh ~ went out of the temple then tingying realised we just talked about v thing , dirty thing inside a holy place lol ! then keep say choychoy touchwood . omg we so cute *bhb* . lala . then went this this cantonese clan thingy o; . so cool lo . ahaha ! went back sch dinner super early . i skip , damn full . afterwards decided with class for wha tperformance during campfire . omg , got so fuckedup . took a long time to settle then everyone cant just shutup . did quite ridiculous thing . got shake butt one lol ! campfire sucked ok . we used the field , then muddymuddy cuz rained . fking disgusting . my shoe is lyke damn , cmi already . then skirt kena a bit also . sit on some noob mat . but highed lyke crazy . then officially sore throat already .skipskip . went bathe blah . teachers kp the girls so much . talked on phone a bit .


14jan last day , today .
did some malay coversational thingy . was sleeping throught it cuz last night sleep 2 hours nia . then plan some cip . blah  breakfast was good . hoho . mac . huishi angry over a milo , lol ! junaidah kp me . make me stand during some survey thing . did many stupid cheers again and shouted lyke crazy . my sexy voice . yay .


cry crying cried now .

BORED .

BORED . UPDATED . YAY .

dongdongqiang .

gonna offline . tired . moodswing . hais . 

i hate homework . dun plan to do ley .

Fck you la . -'-

ccb . today got the project work thing . then need groups of 4/5 . wanted go with sandra that group , my clique then sandra say that what cca times alternate blah .. then they just say me jenny lycia huishi one group . ehy , i didn't say okay ? i not your dog siol ? knn i so unimportant right . you dun need me only need sarah cuz she's from taiwan our pw on taiwan so you all wan her right . bias . i will fucking prove to you that my group will produce a better work than you . idiot . you make me feel so left out . cca alternate days will die meh ? thats why 55mins of pw for us to do work right ? nnb . dunno what is weekends ah . pls , that someone in your group i think also wun turn up for your meetups de . good luck man . 


that dumbdumb someone got caught in the act today . hais .

I acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart .

05.51am now . i think i gonna be late today . around now i should be preparing to leave house already . blahblah . ytd not much. cca. learning new song . v hard siol , the notes are  lyke @!%$!#$! ,i keep texting in cca with someone :3 .  cca extravaganza tmr ! yay . gonna be there from morning till around noon . see juniors also xD . hopefully wun be as toot as my batch :/ ! ytd had discipline talk , then what consequences if dun behave properly . basically all consequences are lyke DETENTION DETENTION DETENTION and your name enter into the school cockpit which will follow through you life blahhhhhhhhhhhh . wtf la . the offences are lyke :/ ? . LOL . esp improper attire already fail , eat food in class and some other cant rmb . whatever . gonna off now . or else gonna be late :/ ~

2nd day school .

hai , omg i look so chui , eyebags . i tie de plaits also messy lyke what shyt . 

sian . someone fever sia . i think fell asleep liao , never reply msg one . dk why i so worried lo ~_~ tmr start sch at 830 ! so buxiguan , last year never liddat one . keke ! my beauty sleep <3 . lazy post la . lol . today hengheng also . new geog cher super good ! he author of another geog tb sia , but not my sch use one . ahah ! look forward to his lessons . tmr got integrated science dk wtf is that O_O . blahblah . quite tired . :/  hais . tmr got cca , wan pon , cant pon . syf coming  . wtf . fkedup sia ! 

lol , you made me cry at night . again . 11:11 , you're not working . i wrote a I -insertsheart- J , i tore it . scared parents see , but i tore it dun mean that i will change . hais . 

First day of school .

not bad (Y) . mdm junaidah form cher again . almost all chers never change except geog and art , then got chemistry and integrated science . blahh . zomg , i so guai lo , clip fringe , cuz super hot , i pekchek LOL . then junaidah never catch feelers sia ! omg , she good mood O_O then my ear sticks she also never see , then she go catch jenny . omg i damn lyke chuatio la . okie , need off liao . today mother dongdongqiang a lot -.- . hit me some more . hais .


i see your status-s , i dun think you're ready

I need you to complete my world .

HAI i am missing you , lyke nowzxc ?! actually , it's every hour every minute every second of my life . but do you know it ? i doubt so . because you made me fall too deep , and i lost my heart on the way down .

Do you even think of me ?

hai . my handwriting sucks . just went to write my big fat name on my new books . write until fucking ugly can . wtf -.- i hate markers lol . zzz . then mother keep nag . from 5pm until now . i never even reply her a single word , she's talking to herself . idiot . can't fucking tahan her . -'- . i use eraser to eraser so that i cant write again cuz v ugly also kaopei . say what eraser dirty , dun dirty HER new books . cb i go to school the books also become dirty right ? i throw in locker , you expect my locker vvvvv clean ? zzz . ccb dulan .  zzz . sua i dun study la , wtf sia . never fail to make me angry -.- . then her new phone i think she totally dun deserve it -.- she should just continue using the screwed old phone that was actually mine -.- then she ask me go read the books say wan test me . jibai ! wtfzxc . i use marker to write , the more i write obviously the tip becoming fatter ,s he say what later i blame her original tip is fine de i write until fat fat wtf ? lol . fuckmylife .

i tio dao by someone again . i dun even think i even crossed his mind . i dun even know what is he doing . he doesnt tell me , so i rather not ask . unreadable mind . maybe i won't even be happy if i continue lyke this . i jealous .  i just wan you to be there for me when i need you , is it so difficult ?

KEKE II

imma continue posting from ytd , last night tired liao >: . 

ytd around 1130 met kaijun at admiralty mrt there , took to hougang mrt , eugene gary jiawen puaytiang already there o; ! then walkwalk  , playplay on the way to hougang mall there , jiawen went to the money changer to change the msia rm to spore moneh :D . then  they say wan eat , in the end go hougang plaza meet whiten first o; . k , then stupid javier haven bathe finish , so never wait him come down , jiu walk to hougang mall first , wanted eat mac , the person say what will help us find enough seats , cuz we too many people , LOL . got so good service one meh ?! ;shy . then in the end go kfc , enough seats , keke ! donovan still on the way to find us at that time ~_~ . blah , me and puaytiang never eat , sit there talk crapcrap :B . wait lydia and elcia come ! blahblahblah , afterwards donovan come , he wearing purple top , LOL . they say ghey LOLOL . whatever , then dilly dally dilly dally , then walk to plaza ~ pooled , me and pt vs lydia and elcia :B lydia say javier look lyke peanut LOL . shhh . LOLLL . 

me vs-ed lydia , i won , keke ! then went to disiao the guys , then javier ask me pool with him , 2vs 2 LOL . me and lydia tio owned la ! he and his shifu so zai ~_~ bully xmm-s ! they win liao , black 8 in liao , we still left around 4-5 balls LOL . >: ! javier and whiten left first , then we around 3plus leave , running , ccb LOL . kk , then took the long way to mrt there , walkingwalking javier suddenly text me say we just walked past him O_O , then asked where we going blahblah . we took train to dhouby ghaut , wanted to play cube , in the end so many people -'- ! wo hen jiu mei you audi properly liao . :/ went arcade , took neos with lydia elcia and puaytiang ! another day i will upload the pics , but i only took 2 , others i forgot LOL . arcadearcade , played lame games .

 go amk hub , pt go orchard , cuz the guys wanted to watch gui ye xiao , then lydia and elcia going amk hub watch movie also . then in the end all the movies quite late , decide vvvvv long in the end just slack around LOL .ate popeyes's bought kid's meal , got kitkat de LOL . oh ya , wheres my kitkat o.o LOL . then eugene went to put plain water in my drink , i drink already he say i got put something inside ley ! i whole person chuatio LOL .laughed lots . nugget act angry i think everyone fell for it LOL . wtf sia :D i 8 plus leave amk hub , the guys went jiawen house ton LOL . 

this morning i woke around 10 plus , sun sibei bright and hot then i wake LOL . then father say wan go out , laobu going buy new phone , old phone is fking screwed anyways LOL . went somerset de , blahblah , i sibei chui , v tired , lyke gonna toh anytime . went the comcenter , then went takashimaya de , in the end went back to woodlands de then buy , cb LOL . ~_~ . around 4 liddat reach home i think , played with laobu's new phone ! samsung galaxy 3 or semo de LOL . (Y) . then laobu sibei noob with the phone :/ the messaging is conversation de , she keep ask where the inbox . wtf , cannot tahan LOL . oh ya , after went takashimaya de singtel shop , went wisma atria to eat at the food republic , LOL . then saw this seat neat the escalator there , my father ask me to sit down first wait the auntie clear the table , then suddenly this mother and son appear lyke they come first liddat , then scold idiot somemore . pcb laojibai , paijiao , then keep frown then diao me , walan , then my father let her , then we took a long time before finding a table -_-

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . 

2010 ended , 2010 arrived . i will learn to cherish the ones i have now . i wun be lyke last year , just get past with everything , i didn't stop and look at what i have .

this morning was 01012011 11:11 . (L)

tonight i'll wait for 01012011 11:11 again , this morning i missed it i saw the time , but i din wish and it was too late >:

on all my 11:11 wishes , i wish for you ♥