Sigh, i really want to know what you are thinking.

i have been thinking alot about what ifs ....

The simple action of thinking about smiling trigger happy chemicals in the brain !

tmr school reopen already! i wun say its a fruitful holiday ): . fly past damn fast means i have been enjoying ! :x . gonna catch up on my studies so i dun think i will be updating often ): . please stay tune , ( if i have stalkers ) . sian i so saddist.

ytd went to lycia house to do proj, damn fast finish. before that wanted to wait for huishi at her condo de park then saw a maltese! wth lycia dog lyke some siao one, then the maltese bochup LOL. so cute x.x 

okayokay, gonna stop here. dk what to post alr. 

Love is like a rubberband. We keep pulling, someone lets go and hurts the one who held on.

CHOIR'S ROD, 2011 21 JUNE (:

@tiong bahru park before bbq <: fun playground!

 rachel's awesome 550D

barbeque-d at cheryl's house! started really early, around 5pm+ then ate until very sian LOL. 

cheryl's sister so cute <3. cher-lyn they all keep say i pedo her ! HMPH. campcampcamp, eateateat until 9 rachel's parents came to fetch her so i tong bang to amk mrt ! :DD. awesome parents. hehehehehe. 

then ytd, had choir practise. can tell we all quite tired and stuff, but ms yin was lyke trying to be in a good mood and put up with our terrible voice. so yeah. before pract, someone told me that it was ms yin's last day, many people din know, din know why ex-co dun wan tell us -_- . zz. anyway. i was lyke really shocked. she helped us get gold with honours, though it's without most of the sec twos,

OH ITS 1111 NOW. LOL. :x

okay, uhm. she said that she decided to leave because it would be best for us and her, because there was some kind of struggle? but then she helped build up the choir a lot, but she said that maybe what she wants, is not what we want. because we always forget what she teaches us and all, i think she's overall damn tired from teaching us ._. i stalked her fb >

she's the pretty bride of course ! <3 and the one beside her is ms chai, she taught us before. really nice conductors )': i hope the new conductor that comes it can meet up to msyin's standards ! if not i really will #@$!@#$!#@$ because next syf, is my batch's year. sec4s, need lead everything, sigh.

i wish her all the best . ms yin i think you were ARE AWESOME.

okayokay, i realise i haven't been updating and doing the stupid photo challenge rightz. i dun care if this is a stupid long post k.

13. a picture of something that means a lot to me.

14. a picture of someone i miss

15. a picture of me last year and now. how have i changed?

13 ) my phone ! the left one. the one with the duckie <3 . yaya, i know im retarded, i guess people will say some precious gift or something, but i guess currently i dun really have anything that a special someone gave me? (: so the first thing that came to my mind was my phone 8D

14 ) i dun really know who miss, but i think you should refer to #11 maybe this is what they call emptiness, when you dun really what u feel, waiting for someone to fill the space inside me (: 

15 ) yes the first pic the one > is me. with the stupid hair, specs and smile. but everyone i guess more or less will change ma. hahaha. that was p6. end of p6 i went to reborn hair and cut fringe, thus the difference i guess? i also dk why last time my eyesight wasn't as bad as now and yet i kept wearing my specs. -_- 

i dare to admit that last time, i thought i was pretty. lol. lyke wtf right. anyway must ZILIAN YI DIAN MA  8D . so thats me, and this is still me (: . looks might have changed, but my '' INSIDES '' are still the same ! LOL. 

btw, i have recently thought it through, i think i will wan to pursue as a vet, or photographer (: . but these two a bit difficult uh, to lyke start from now. anyway, desperate to buy a SLR now. ): . 

yay im done with this longlonglong post. 

从前有一个人爱你很久

15 DAYS PHOTO CHALLENGE

12. A PICTURE OF MY FAVOURITE BOOK.

a book of friendship, at the end i did cry. (: . awesome much.

i think i have been having an obession with dogs  ♥.♥

omf why did i dream of you aagain.

I'm dreaming with my eyes wide open because I do not want to miss a moment.

tues, slackedslacked at home.
wed went out to eat mos burger with mum ^^ >

THURSDAY CLASSOUTING @ EAST COAST.
apparently i have no photos, main reason because i was lazy ;x so reached bedok mrt around 12pm?
lycia and bailin alr there, everyone else was late ~_~ joey that group alr reach ! damn early ~

wanted to take bus there, in the end we dk where to algith LOL. so we alighted at some random stop and cabbed there. dw wait the guys alr. hahahahah.
me and lycia go skate afterwards evening then cycling to changi. i swear, the aeroplanes were so fking near us. (Y) .

ytd went to lycia house ! to do vj with jenny. film finish alr. we so zai xD . played with cookie, he is starting to bark alot.

anyway, i have some rants.

it's about you. byl. what can i say. i guess i can't say much since you also dun treat me v bad or anyth so i shan't be so bad? ~_~ argh. i cant tahan youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. enraged when you can just give up our classouting for -_-

okay sorry for really late update on this photo thingy.
15 DAYS PHOTO CHALLENGE.
6.PICTURE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BAND OR ARTIST.
so sorry i have been '' breaking '' the rules LLOL. cuz i always put two pics. x.x indecisive! two is better than one :x

taylor swift and avril lavigne. these two are opposites i guess? avril lavigne has her style ~ goth punk etc. taylor swift, classy. in love with both their songs the story of us and i love you. <3

7. A PICTURE OF THE PERSON YOU DO THE MOST MESSED UP THINGS WITH.

constanceseah i guess. (:

8. A PICTURE OF SOMETHING YOU WAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE.

spend quality time with my special someone.

9. A PICTURE OF SOMEONE YOU COULD NEVER IMAGINE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT.

i dunno sia. lol. constance? above ^ or parents. i dun have a pic of them and they wun allow me to take their pic LOL.

10. A PICTURE OF SOMEWHERE I'D LOVE TO TRAVEL.

11. A PICTURE AND A LETTER.

hello. this is the best pic of you i could find. this is one that i took while others are by others. we've known each other for about 3 years. i keep thinking you changed but i guess i changed more than you. but why have you cause your life to become so messed up? lol. did you know i regretted for about 1 year after i was so stupid and hurt you. maybe i should have waited till you change? i guess i was too impatient when you had treated me so well. this pic was when you was at admiralty cuz your std at that time was the i forgot who, live at sembawang de so you were here and i watched you eat kfc. it's been so long. last time i was so toot and nerdy etc, looked lyke kns but you didn't mind. you saw past them. you are special and will remain special to me. there are many memories of the times we spent together i dunno if you remember them since you have made many new ones with your girlfriend(s). it's been quite long since i last saw you. please do take care and stop getting into trouble or tangled with some bitch that is not even worth you. 

APOLOGIES

please do stay tune i wil be updating either later, or.tmr morning peeps! love you guysss.

Maybe this is not.....

will be updating soon people! today went ecp and had much. reached home one hour ago and damn tired!

I wanna lock myself in my room, turn the music up loud so that no one can hear that i'm screaming.

yesterday went to jurong point to watch super 8 with constanceseah and jj ! winkz. he v funny LOL. :x . watch a 830pm movie. hahhaha. end around 1025. LOL. at around 9+ all three of us say that we wan to pee LOL. then keep need to control laughter so that pee wun come out LOL. lmaolmao ! damn epic :3 . fun day ytd.

my review for super8, basically it was hard for me to concentrate in the movie LOL. because keep laughing at stupid stuffs with constance . i about 3/4 understand? but a bit not nice ._. a bit no sense. i think lyke not worth watching in the theatres :x. BUT ANYWAY. at least i had fun ^^ .

afterwards tong bang constance's parents de car home. thankyou! hehehe. nightmare started when i reached home and mother kpkb lyke some fck. comeon, its lyke 11+? somemore got her parents fetch us home she so angry for what?! then i sent her a sms lyke complaining etc everytime i cant go out until TOO LATE.  10+ reach home she nvr so angry, 11+ reach , 1 hour ltr she angry alr? cb whr my fking freedom sia. omg. then i cried lyke some mofo -_- .

nevermind hahahaha. i guess parents are lyke that. no choice.

So unpredictable.

15 DAYS PHOTO CHALLENGE
5. A picture that can make you smile.


i dun really smile at pictures!?   lyke wtf this one LOL. hahaha.

i dunno about pictures making me smile, but they can make me smile (: used to. 

people change ! so ANYWAY.

constanceseah now bathing ! later watching movie with her i think :D ! byeee. i go prepare ^^ .

Staying with someone because you dun wan to hurt their feelings will eventually hurt them

punkstar shirts are so cute :3

15 DAYS PHOTO CHALLENGE..
4. A picture of something you enjoy doing
okay wtf i have no idea again.

+

SHOPPING WITH FRIENDS. okay its lyke an awesome feeling after you bought something okay. i always wanted to go on a shopping spree, but then i always no $$ !! wtf only LOL. xD . ONE DAY I WILL HAVE ENOUGH DE I SWEAR HEHEHHEHEE.

Please tell me this is right.

okay just got home from yishun, went to eat teppanyaki! hehehehe, but i think a bit too dry uh. lazy upload pic now . anyway!


yepyep i saw sandra's status which is most probably about my previous blog title, i am allowed to hate somebody that hurt me? she said sometimes you just have to realise its not always you in the right, me in the wrong. well you have the right to hate someone who hurt you but that would make the person hate you more (:

OKAY SANDRA. you are making me confused okay? its lyke u are still neutral with me, u comment on my status etc and now you say this? meaning you hate me more? lololol ? . i din say i was in the right . i dun even know where i stand O_O . anyway, saying sorry too many times defeats the purpose so yeah. not exposing you, but i dun have THE GUTS lyke you to comment on status all this on fb okay? so im QUITE sure you might check my blog sometimes hhahahha. (: .

on formspring i asked, whaat would u do with friends you have drifted, talk about it or leave a msg. i think only one person say, let nature take its course, all say talk about it. but i lyked this one alot > 

talk to him/her about it, and if they care, they'll try to be close with you back. but sometimes no matter how you try, maybe he/she can't be close with you agian. but me, i'll depend on who that person it ^^ . 

i guess the second one applies to me.

People erase you from their lives because it is easier than working things out.

okay, i think im getting really paranoid and things liddat again? i mean lyke seriously. hais. these few days really boring, stayed at home, need go for cca then go ~ maybe this sunday meeting constanceseahseah!

15 DAYS PHOTO CHALLENGE.

3.  A picture of your favourite night.

i dun have a picture of my '' favourite night '' , hmm cant really rmb when, most of the times when i hang out with friends ? :D . got this random picture from tumblr, it is stated that this is singpore, which i dun really believe ?! this looks too nice to be singapore ?!

I have so many friends, why do i still feel so alone?

i met you for a reason, the reason is most probably not to hurt me right?

15 DAY PHOTO CHALLENGE!
im doing 1 and 2 today cuz i wanted to start ytd but didn't heheheh. i think is ytd :x
1. A picture of yourself with ten confessions. 

ONE. i'm very conscious of my looks. and basically, getting fat drives me crazy sometimes.

TWO. im paranoid.

THREE. i often doubt myself of my own feelings.

FOUR. i lyke to stalk both guys and girls on facebook. IM NOT LESBO OK.

FIVE. i lyke to zilian. sometimes i really think i look good. but not always. LOL. when my hair is nice and everything.

SIX. because of a quarrel with my mum once during p6 ( i think ) i dun sleep in my room anymore. i sleep in the masterbedroom , mattress on the floor.

SEVEN. i can't stand not having anybody close to me at all. i'll feel so empty.

EIGHT. i used to be crazy over peter pan the movie cuz i thought that he looked very handsome and even fantasized LOL.

NINE. im currently googling on how to tell someone i miss them LOL.

TEN. i often change my mindset/ goals. i always want many different things at different time.

2. A picture of something i love.

i wanted to put tumblr but anyway ! i get bored of it if i run out nice pics to look at :P. i love animals. esp dogs and cats. i cant really tell which i lyke more but i think they are adorable ! :B. maybe i will be bias against some species lyke the bulldog ._.but anyway ! i love animals okeh ! :B .

This hug is flawless, don't you let it go.

always wanted a pet, cat or dog is best but parents dun let ): lyke so cute only ! D: . cant imagine if i got a companion at home since i have no siblings ): .

dk if i posted but i watched kungfu panda 2 and xmen first class this week ! just wanna sum this week up (: . lazy post the movie de pictures hehehe .

okay, if you dun wan to give me ur ans, i wun ask for it. maybe u forgot alr anyway. (: lyke the cat i surrender. you win hands down okay ? (: . 

am i right to pursue this? will anything come out from this?

I'm allowed to hate somebody who hurt me okay?

HELLOHELLO.

kk firstly, im bored.

secondly, i hate orangle skittles.

 i left all the orange skittles no eat ! LOL. hehehhe .




yep, june is here. i hope it will be different. it is gonna be lyke a new beginning, a new term after the hols, new goals and everything. omg i sound so chim hehehehe !

yep i went to siloso beach ytd ! <3
with lydiadarling, chrislynnuer, donovandaddie, weiming, xing rong and haikal ^^.

daddie with his dabian lolll !!

 nuer/darling <3

 epic @ daddie.

YEP YTD WAS LYDIADARLING BDAY. HEHEHE SHE LAO ALREADY. OLD RAISIN.


i got my awesome donovan daddie. he's crazy funny and sometimes a bit too high yeah ? LOL. :D he makes the whole clique hype up ^^ and does what he does always, make us laugh, even if he turns ridiculous :D .
lydiadarling is a duachiobu. she's nice and hyper hehehehehe. not really close to her but hope to be ! i bet she can be a great listening ear and her boyf seem really nice too :B
chrislynnuer/darling yep i confide into her. i think she understands too. she's fun and ilh.


of course i have constanceseah and gladysleong too ! :D they are afterall my childhood friends and i wun leave them and i know they will nt leave me too. hehehehehehehehe ! <3
constance and her cuteness LOL. she so cute lo. heheheh. she knows what is '' listening '' <:
gladys and her siaoness. LOL. dun too emo okeh !


i lyke this group lots. glad that lydia invited me cuz she say only closefriends but dk why she picked me. really happy . hehee. why greendale ppl so good one. juniors and seniors everyone also know and come together de ): jealous ! 


we have real fun tgt. a togetherness kind of fun. no one gets left out. except maybe haikal who dun talk much LOL. :x . we are together in everything when we're out. as in we dun forget about each other. i love this feeling. its been long since i had fun. we may not laugh as much when im with my school ex-clique but at least we are truly happy, nt holding any grudge within ourselves.


btw, i think you are disgusting. i dun get why people just overlook you flaw and yet they scrutinise(spelling?) mine so much. call me jealous or whatever. i still treat u as my friend, i guess (: