We will never let it fall.

monday sucked.
tuesday was okay. had icas test. quite simple.
today wan fun. pengfun is cute and funny.
lala i lazy blog.

Maybe im just being despo.

pictures time ! ps really late.

                  

tuesday choir's pizza :D

earth day on wednesdayyyy.

 yesterday went to jp , lycia house and got tealiciousssssss. swee. (Y)

 lycia house and cookieeeee.

bored max yeah. lots of work to be done. doubt i will finish much. -.- . gahhhh. T_T 

We lost each other.

im sorry that im no longer your happiness neither are you mine anymore. i dun think i caused this. you are far away now. last time even though in school we dun really talk, you talk to me on msn, or maybe I TALK to you on msn and then we talk about our heart feelings. but now, if you are gonna blame me for not talking to you anymore, im sorry, but i dun bother about it already. if i dun even have half or less than half of your heart wanting to talk to me and you dun bother, why should i bother. no, i dun wan to lose you as a friend. first thing that comes to my mind if i wanna go out with somebody would be you. but i will skip the thought. 

i dunno if this is a past tense already but, you WERE my greatest friend.

and now number one friend in my heart is kinda empty. 

cuz i cant decide btw my choir mates and classmates friends. choir mates i dun confide into them though.

you know you cant expect everyone to stay the same. if you really appreciate them and wan them to stay in your life, you accept the change. if you cant accept the change and you choose to leave, then fine, no one can stop you. now i feel a LITTLE empty without you REALLY 'in my life' anymore, i hope you feel the same. but i doubt so.


cheryl, look around you. you do not live in a world with only a small group of people. what about others. they are not there for you to walk by after a few words. what about sarah and sandra, dun talk about the BOY, if its jealousy, i think its an excuse.


just a reply to your blog again and what i think. 
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ltr gonna meet up for lit proj. die died dead. i just cried in my dream last night. cant really rmb what happen, but, ohwell, its been a long time since i had a dream that could make me really cry and wake up with tears. 


at least it shows my heart is still working (:

Selfish slut.

tuesday : 

WE HAD  PIZZA CUZ SYF GOT GOLDWITHHONOURSSSSSSS. THEN PLAYPLAYPLAYPLAY HEHEHE. I LOVE CHOIR SECTWOS. <3 . left school already then went starbucks drink white chocolate mocha :3 . WANDERFULL.

wednesday : 

stayed back with AI WU JI WU HENRY to do earth day banner HAHAHA. fking funny. then fking high gloss paint sticky lyke shyt and wun come off my hand ): around 9 then reach home sia </3 tired dai.

todayyyyy.

choir was crazyyyyyy. but wasted 2hours for speech day rehearsals. slacking is (Y) . laughed lyke crazy, dk why i only can high with choir friends, not classmates D: . classmates i always lyke laugh at different things from them. zzz. 

haha, i love choir naoz <3

some people i just cant stand/understand.

fml

Friendship is like standing on wet cement, it's hard to leave after sometime and you can't leave w/o leaving your footprints behind.

im sorry, all i can say is that, you were once the icing on top of my cake. you complete it. but then you left. and it was lyke my cake was left exposed, naked and vulnerable. 

some points ( replies ) to your blog post. i dun wanna question what you think and stated but well ..

okay mix and match, you sure its mix and match? im sorry i dun see it btw you and kayyee. im not saying anything between the lines okay ? you should know it yourself.

okay what words came out of my mouth ? i just always dun understand you. at one point, you dislike, at another point you lyke. maybe you just ain't settled.

i realise, when we CHOOSE the date 01 , first , one , it was just superficial. cuz the numbers were nice. but now i think back, i wanted you to think of me FIRST, come to me FIRST, and you were ONCE my first. but i realise since im not your first, im wasting my effort. 

i'd rather go to sandra, really. you wun start the conver unless someone starts it, as my fb status says, i cant always be waiting for you to start right, but i am honestly getting fed up, BUT OH WELL. ITS OKAY.

'' ITS OKAY '' , thats what you always say right ): . when we talk to you about how we feel, as in about our clique things, you always say. ITS OKAY. you really think its okay? 

im tired, and im not gonna stir trouble. so i'll shutup after this post.

forgiving. 

 THIS MORNING

woke around 9 am then wake father up ! going woodlands gym hehe. i thought gonna take train in the end, my father say run there LOL. i halfways die alr. omg the gym fun sia. hehe. tired max then just now fell asleep <: HAVEN DONE ANY HOMEWORK YET NOR STUDY. CLASSTESTS COMING ):

Say cheese.

tired. mother is pissing me off. trying not to lose my patience. this sucks.

Something inside is really shutting me off.

the pic i wanted to post ytd :D

okay today was not a really awesome day, but well ~~~~~~~~~

hehe, look at me crazy hair aft taking down plaits ! xD

was quite bad mood so i went to run 1.2km, which is actually reallyreally short zzz. && THERES MATH TMR. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. LOL. IM SICK OF MATH. we have it practically everyday T_T . 

okay, somethings happened unknowingly to everyone, and no one expected people to think that way. okay, ya basically this is obvious okay. its to sandra sarah and lycia k. im not angry that you wan me to play along etc k. idk i just zzz about it. arghh. I THINK IM PARANOID, OHNO.

wa seriously eff this shyt. GAHHH. TMR IM GONNA GO AND BUY MADE IN CANDY . SERIOUSLY. IF NOT IM GONNA DIE OF STREE OR SMTH. ): .

choir has problems, my friends have problem ( at least that's what i think )  & WHAT'S WITH THIS JEALOUSY IM FEELING OVER EVERYONE D: . it's lyke i wan everyone to be mine and only mine. seriously. i think im jealous of people being happy. wtf is this. i lyke only can be happy with choir sec twos. and high and laugh lyke some crazy woman. fck this seriously.

hey thanks hotdog, idk if you are just talking to me cuz you have no one to talk to alr, cuz recently then you lyke keep talk to me. haha, at least someone turns to me ! <: . friday i try go okay ? but not cfm, cuz aft sch then v mafan D: . 

k bye.

Im tired of being tired.

wtf is this. cant upload pics. 
okay, omg i gained weight, seriously. fking fat now.

quite a okay day. had 2.4 run. shermaine counted for me only 4 rounds, i got kinda fedup. wasted my effort. 4 rounds 11min ++,  5 rounds 13 minutes liddat ba :D .

why cant people just have unlimited amount of energy. why do we die again and again. i realise i am always jumping between the good and bad or the advantages and disadvantages. but somehow, they always seem equal / balance. you know that feeling when you really can't decide smth and you feel lyke crying out and your heart is pounding so fast and your head is exploding? just lyke today. about choir auditions. i dunno what i wan. one side is, go, at least you have a try, even if you dun get in. other side is, dun go la, the seniors dun even need you, you go extra, later give him trouble or make them sound worse. then in the end, msyin left anyway. haha.

im tired of being tired. im tired of being alone. im tired of being me. but i am still me, and i cant change just so whatever way i wan. disappointed with myself. i know that i am different from last time. yea, i have changed, but i cant change to suit everyone. im sorry im not awesome. im sorry im not what you expect / wan me to be.

i think half my heart of choir died alr. hais. how to build it up again. but i lyke my level mates. omg they are great. maybe because i dunno them lyke really well. haha, but i lyke this feeling.

sometimes even when you meet up with your really close friend for after a while, both parties wun feel comfortable speaking to each other about personal stuffs anymore. i know that feeling.

im sad and i kinda hurt.

Strangers stab you in the front. Friends stab you in the back. Boyfriends stab you in the heart. But best friends only poke each other with straws .

hey awesome.

Since there is a reason to everything, what's the reason for meeting you?

aww, this pic so nice ! <: . bored dai now ): . OMG LYKE GONNA RAIN ALR. LTR GOING OUT LEY ): MEET CONSTANCESEAH <3 . HEHE. 

ytd went to school gonna try out for choir auditions with shiyuan keryn steffi and rachel. cuz seniors having their choir fulldressrehearsals then when msyin come she can audition us. we went to have our own practise :B . but quite slack ah , keke. had fun blahblah talked and high-ed lyke siao. LOL. i kept laughing for no reason :x . then hor. already 1230 then school need to close, ms yin no come. zzz. starting to get worried and fed up zzz. okay, then at the end, finally she come. she corrected seniors etc. then hor, she talk to top 6, THEN HOR SHE LEFT ALR. i was totally lyke wtf. dun need us can just say a not. wasted my 5 hours. seriously. -.- . ffed up alr. i think if audition also wun get in anyway. im so dumb. zzz.

then left school with genie and rachel, go clementi mall eat longjohnsilver. idc alr, fried food man tian fei, anyway no syf. -.- . then around 2.15 take train home, sandra kayyee sarah cheryl all at jurong east library, asked if i wanted to join them but i v no mood and fed up so just went home. use compcomp, around 5 plus went to sleep cuz too tired. then woke up this morning, cant believe i slept so long LOLOL.

mother gonna go and pay respects to my grandfather, hmm. bored alr. alone at home until 12 ! 

okay. BYE.

Maybe i was wrong.

final chance, final shot at syf. this saturday. conductor standard set very high alr. dun really have much hope. stressed, sore throat, lyke going KUA ALR. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 

Let it be.

dunno whether i trying to help sandra with her softball problem is just creating trouble for myself and her. aiya. frustrated.

syf not in alr. quite so very sure. hopes dead. tired max. everyday go out for more than 12 hours. chui, shag, whatever you say okay. hais. problems about trust again. im fighting with myself. 

dun really feel lyke reporting at 630 tmr. reallyrealyl damndamn tired alr. omg. hais. 

ooh come and get you some candyyy ~

yesyes ! me new wallet and phone ! omg wo shi xin fu de :B . wallet just bought long ago daddy buy one more !  then phone is cuz recontract but now i got data plan liaoooo !~ zomggggggggggggg. shiok . hehehehhehehehehe.

Now i'm deafen-ed by your silence.

Just because my eyes dun tear, doesn't mean my heart won't cry.

bad mood k. mother kp. a lot of things dun really know what to do alr.

i wan you to understand how i feel.

i realise now i have this sucky feeling. i dislike seeing people really laughing happily etc. wtf ? i mean in class, when im not with my clique. i guess i've become reallyreally selfish. i dun lyke this me D: . i feel lyke it is so difficult to be really happy. zzzzz. omg cheeweiqian, what happen to you !! LOL. ohno. people who are possessive and selfish everyone confirm dislike one ):  

SADDED. monday no school, elearning. BORED MAX LA. somemore until evening one. wtf. ridiculous! if not can go out one ! #!$~!$!%@ . FLOOD ED WITH HOMEWORK T_T

ytd april foolz was funny ! stuck post-it notes on people's back. now i feel so evil x.x . LOL. cuz i stick ppl, ppl no stick me sia ! HAHA. DID SOME REALLY FUNNY ONE. cuz these two days keep syaing cheryl never wear panties/ wear 4 panties, so i when to stick on her LOL. :x . HAHA. and i smacked yixuan's butt to stick on him, then he turn around, then no reaction, LOL. then i laugh lyke shyt seriously. wanted to prank junaidah de, everything stick to her in chinese, in the end she come in badmood alr -.- wtf lor. #$!$!@$% . then aft nearly one period she leave alr, motherfking slacker ! but good for us, but she dun deserve her salary la ! 

okeh, gonna go bishan meet parents, maybe gonna get new phone alr !! <3

byees !

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