Sacred.

i looked at my class photo2010.
i saw how most of us change. mostly looks.
hairstyle.
height.
personality.
and i am crying inside.

last year it was innocent us.
we did not know each other to the fullest but something held us together.
yeah i am looking at the five of 'us' .
lol is it just me or what?
idk.
cheryl first's. remember? 2323. in 7minutes. no i dun think u rmb.
sandra laogong. rmb we drew on our milk coffee bottles. laogong and laopo. i miss you.
i miss you all. and nw im breaking down.

do i really only hav myself to blame? lol.

believe. hope.

I thought i didn't deserve you but actually, you didn't deserve me (:

met up with constance and gladys ytd (: . awesome max.

I used to be trippin' over missing you but i'm not anymore.

bored max. otp nowz.

test

testing to use bloggeroid on my phone ^^

Sometimes it just hurts too much to look back, move on, and leave it all behind.

i think i have forgotten how to love.

nan hua sports carnival today ! my class got super boring stuff -_- silat + ropeskipping.

everyday im shuffling ~ 

tsk. >:

i din even say my pictures below was saying you then you take it as its saying you ): .
i not lyke the previous time say others dog siah. now i wan talk to you you also dunwan. wan to make things better you also dunwan. aiyoh. 
i say the quotes are what i wanted to see to make me feel better dun mean i dun will it right ): wtf is this? 


): la.

I'll spread my wings & i'll learn how to fly. Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye.

 yeps im updating again. not much to say though. hehe.

 ytd for dinner went to admiralty place there to eat! ate herbal soup. i was really hungry even after eating finish the rice and everything i was still hungry ! so i ate some of my mum's kway chap hahaha.

went to guardian and shopped for a really long time! wanted to buy a new pimple cream because of the stupid huge pimple on my nose. saw one oxy cover and one point clear-japan brand. the japan's one was really exp ! $9.90 for one small tube ._. okay afterall its #1 in japan. but the oxy cover can cover the pimple while healing ! i was really desperate to cover it. ohwell. hahaah. too ai mei alr. went home to try and it really heals fast but the colour, skin colour dun really match. ohwell, better than nothing :D


^ above. found lots of quotes related to what i feel and what i wanted to see (: 


anyway, i think im gonna update on a weekly basis? most probably two during the weekends yeah? :D . june hols will most probably be random !


FIVE MORE DAYS TO START OF JUNE HOLS <3


should i reborn my hair again ? O:

Wish upon a floating balloon. - free and uncontrollable.

 MARINA BARRAGE ON WED, 18 MAY 2011 (:

MACBETH - FORT CANNING PARK 20 MAY 2011 <:

late updates on what i have done and attended cause too much things then forget post.

macbeth was awesome. main lead was adrian pang. awesome max. gunshots shocked me everytime. damn louddd.

marina barrage was fun max. i realise i am happier when i dun really stick with ' clique ' for this kind of trip? jenny <:  <3 . hhahahaha.

sandra ah, your blog say same mistake. my last mistake was backstabbing? but i cant rmb me saying anything about you all this time.. 

i miss my chrislyn nuer !!! omgbbq.

It hurt me.

maybe saying any of this is not gonna change anything. 

i miss you sandratan.

i didn't know you were pissed from the start.

i didn't know you were trying to be good with me.

but when you said never, i was really sad. 

because i dunno what i did wrong . AGAIN

i didn't understand why you dun wan to tell me once you were unhappy.

i didn't understand why when i told you i thought sarah and u were pissed at me you didn't wan to reply.

until i ask the second time then you admitted.

why you had to keep me in the dark.

i thought we were good. i thought we were still friends, even when it wasn't GOODFRIENDS.

im sorry if i stick to cheryl more. im sorry if that is the impression i gave you.

im sorry if i seldom talked to you.

im sorry if i called you fake after you told me.

because the first thing that came to my mind was, 

why didn't you tell me. why did you still have to TRY to be good.

why did you choose to cover what you truly feel.

im sorry if i didn't know you were TRYING.

because i didn't know you were unhappy.

im sorry if i did anything wrong again to upset you.

i hope you would explain to me.

it's okay if you dun wan to.

im sorry if calling you fake hurt you so much.

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE UNHAPPY. 

WHY DID YOU CHOOSE TO TRY AND COVER THINGS UP. 

WHYWHYWHY. 

I DUN WAN TO CRY BECAUSE OF THIS ANYMORE.

I DUN WAN TO LOSE YOU ALL

AND QUARREL

AND HAVE SO MANY MISUNDERSTANDINGS

AND HAVE THIS CYCLE REPEATED ONCE EVERY FEW MONTHS.

i saw your fb. you dun even feel sad. but i am sad.

why aren't you sad.

do i mean so little to you?

im sorry. i can say a thousand sorries to you even if i dun know what's wrong.

but will you accept?

sandra..

i hope to hear your side of this.

and in the end. we would just be lyke " hello, can we be friends ? " 

gahhh.

omg fked up. one of my blog posts disappeared. -.- i rmb it was quite a long one? i think? zzzz. stupid blogger. blogspot !$!#$!#@$.


happy bday xianfang !


CONGRATS THOSE WHO JUST FINISHED THEIR EXAM OR IS FINISHING TMR <:

i dont understand how people make promises even though they know how common promises are being broken. but even i do that

yep, i have started playing blackshot lol. quite fun. but i really damn noob. but i doubt this game can last me through all my boredom. thinking of mapling.

bored shyt ! stayed home this weekend. cant believe it -_- my life is getting more and more boring by the day.

Even if you treat people kindly & honestly, they will still hate you and you can't complain.

i swear im getting fat T_T ! tummy fats fck off manz ! -'- 

bored max yeah. din go out today. ~~~~~~~

yesterday had 4 class tests ! omfg only! 2 math 1 chemistry and 1 english T_T . stupid math. hehehe but i got confidence ! easy as abcdefgh !~ i think this year i did quite not bad ley ! heheheh * bhb * but i have hardly been studying ;p . slack max ! 

aiya most probably he wun see this. but still. i think that you are getting irritating. i thought you were interesting and quite cute at first but now you are getting on my nerves. why the fck so many ppl know that you lyke me. walao. you spread or what? i will ps one ley -.- . and i am not exactly interested in where are you or where you are going so you can kindly stop telling me that every single day. omfg . gah. dun keep chan zhe wo pls ! 

HEYYY, THIS IS JENNY HEHE. SHE SITS BEHIND ME IN CLASS ! and i think she is awesome and she is crazy over buddy rush x.x i just started playing today and i think im going hardcore too ;x. kekeke.
 > stupid junaidah go change seats then no change my seat. now add 3 aliens around me T_T . right left front all nobody to talk to. all those listen to class or do some crazy random stuff one. so i only can talk to jenny ;x . solly jenny if i too chatty then disturb you in class. keke. omg. next term or whatever faster come i wan whole class change seats ! T_T . 




time is really passing fast seh. wtf only. so fast may already! and soon, 205 will be separating to different classes ): i think i will really miss these old classmates next year. awesome. really hope we can make new class tee cuz nw is ugly max ! and fcking big. wtf only. i wun even wan to wear it.


and hopefully can get a choir jacket ! <3 


bye peeps! relink me !


SEE ANOVE ^ LOCKEDPINKIES <3 . 
and follow my tumblr if you have one ! INSENSIBLELIES <: 

I hope it can work this time.

BORED, MAC FRM SCH. SOME ASS IS DAOING ME.

Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.

yes im chui. lyke what the shit okay. 

okay here im gonna say 

HAPPY BDAY CONSTANCESEAH. YEAH HER BDAY IS ON 5MAY, YES IM LATE.

ytd around 8 i went to her house to pass her the bday prezzie and me card ! heheheheehehhee. i bought her a kimmidoll <: . spirit and beauty ! ex max lor for the doll :/ LOL. then we keesiao-ed until 10 liddat then i start to walk home. HEHEHEHE FUNNY MAX. i love her ttm. my chiobu always (: <3 

nw gonna hav to chiong to go boonlay alr ! need do the stupid art project. RETARDED LEY. I HATE D & T . 

and also, to my RONN HOTDOG: last long with your new gf ! tsktsk so fast change stead! dun forget me hor !

Big or small, they are still lies.

now i think that im stupid for trying to change my bad points just because i am afraid you will dislike me, even as a friend. i always thought so much of what you think of me. but now, i dun need to tell me who i am already. because you are unreasonable. i dun even know what i do wrong TO YOU. arghhh, i dun feel comfortable talking to you or whatever, even when you are okay with me. why you never think of what i feel. why you so bias. why you keep walking in and out of my life ?!


i should just let go .  i will not let you tell me who i am ever again.


 yay, tmr no choir ;x . BUT GOT ENGLISH TEST. THEN FRIDAY IS HISTORY AND INTEGRATED SCIENCE TEST. haissss. i think i moodswing lyke some stupid pregnant woman. and im retardedly paranoid. i think im boring shyt. whatever.


i wanna watch thor ! people, watch source code ! damn nice <3 . random shytz ;x


today went mos burger after school with kayyee and cheryl (: . spammed stupid unglams -_- I AM SUPER UNGLAM . i look so fat and ugly zzz.


 okayokay.  needa chiong study history already. ciaos (: .

Didn't know that it still matters to me.

 people always say let go to those who feel sad over somebody, even i say that to people. but when the situation comes to ourselves, saying that to ourself dun always work. 

your tears, i dunno, issit tears of laughter, or tears because you're touched. 


i dun think there should be the word > LOVE-D. if you really LOVE-D, there is no past tense to it, even if it didn't work out, there will be a little of love left. evident from your jealousy or just wanting him/her to have their attention.


today sec fours ORD ! was quite fun uh, din have much choir practise. around 15 mins ?! ;x some phantom of the opera song uhh. music of the night or something. SOUNDS LYKE  UH. HEHEHE. nice song though !


i quite sad sec fours leave already, though i am not really close to any of them, maybe except LIYIN MY DANIEL BAAA. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wShaPzlnmVA .  awesome.


i think i lost my direction.

You & I used to be so perfect together.

yay. omg i got new compy alr ^^ . though din manage to get contacts cuz dad allow then mum keep kp ! D: . lalal . nvm, look on the bright side of everything (: .


next week so many cher spam tests for my class haha. din even start studying on any cuz i never bring a single book home xD im awesome. yay.