It takes a boy you really love to make you cry .

javierohzixiang i miss you lyke fkzxc !

tmr jiu already 2 weeks never see you ! ):

HAI , BOREDZ NOW . STILL HAVE CHEMISTRY TEST TMR , HAVEN EVEN STUDY, LMAO . IMMA DIE .

SEE I SO GOOD , I DONATE , BUT ACTUALLY IS MY DAD'S MONEY LOL .

yesterday went city hall with laopei , see i so good girl ^^ . cuz dad at city hall le , then i wanna go bras basah . then finally found a suitable diary scheduler thing ! cuz this year lyke too many things , seriously need something to organise things ! $40 ZZ . BRANDED BOOK MANZ . cuz cover made of leather , daddy agree to buy for me , hehe , so happy . then he ownself buy a cheap de less than 10 dollar de , omg so guilty . then went city link walkwalk , HAHAHA . wanted buy assessments but was thinking go back woodlands then buy cuz i got discount voucher at home , in the end , wanted to go home rest a while first then take voucher out to buy , laobu say expire end of dec last year , i was lyke wtf la , then she kp us , say what we dk hw ask first meh , NVMS .

today went chin hong house with sarah and bailin  , bailin look funny , his shirt too long, his pants too long, his socks too high LOL .okay , huida din come cuz he sick . when chinhong house do the rich fest geography thing , slack more than work . AS EXPECTED . then watched the vampire's assistant . V NICE SHOW K . HEHE . kk then wanted go shopping at lot1 , then cotton on din have the design of the top i wan , i think out of stock cuz other colours have ): planning to buy tmr ! jav was at amk , i was hesitating whether to go and find him , hmm , in the end never find , went slack with kaijun and his two friends . JOKE SIA THEY . thn got some taiji , shan't say here . (: 

around 8 took train back to admiralty from cck :D . cuz next day still got school then got the stupid test ! ): . jav whr are you again nowz ? fall asleep ? msn status busy ley . 

some people are meant to fall in love , but never meant to be together .

swee bo ? 
found this generator thing on google . 
cuz i was doing the back of the class tee , so i suggested barcoding . now waiting for responses from classmates whether they wan individual barcodes or everyone same . but did up everything le . printed all 42 barcodes . last two is 205 and mdmJ . 


hais .

don't stand there and watch me fade .

today went to buy oktea with tingying lianzhi zhenyu and yiting . then ate fromage with tingying . spicycheesefries = (L) .  eat until around 3pm , cuz left school late . me goodgirl , do my sweep floor duty which i haven done for around 2 weeks+  . kk , a lot people had cca today , then kayyee wanted to eat alone with cheryl , said she wanted to talk to her . hmm . okay . so i went with tingying and gang . talkedtalkedtalked . got quite fedup with some people in our class . xialan much , show attitude . come only , lol . why my class , everyone no problem , only my clique always wil start dislike people. aiyo , v xinku . 

have i really admitted & accepted .

i dunno why . i now really v xin tong . 

lol , i realise i have been keeping too many things to myself , i have the feeling im gonna explode because cheryl's not online for me to rant at ): . neither is sandra . the feeling of exploding . is lyke a mixture of tears , and uncomfortable-ness .

seventh's . 

we dun have much memories together . 1week plus since i saw you . hmm . i still think i dun fit in with you . nor your friends . you belong to the xm that group . and shirley jevin they all . maybe joey should be rightfully your stead . i dunno la . lol . yeah , you're not what i thought you'ld be lyke . but i feel so tired . i dun wan lose you , but its so tiring . mentally . and my mental tired-ness is making me physically tired too . i choose to believe you k . i choose to believe that , when she held your hand , you did not wan her to . but you just held on because it was lyke just her few days out and you wanna make her feel better . i believe that , you really dun think im extra and im a burden . i believe that , you dun think of me the way your friends do . i believe that , you really wan to be by my side when i reallyreally need you , but it's just you're busy and you can't pei me .

i believe that , you love me . cuz you do , right ? 

i guess i should hold on. 

i'll hold on until i'm so weak and shag that i have no choice but to let go .

ily . 

I am ready to say goodbye. I still love you more than ever.

when you said it , i was lyke orh . but inside . i was stabbed .

eeyer . i sad ley . you say they say i childish . ): . i paiseh all this ma . i go find you all slack , i feel damn awkward la . wtf . hais . ): . 
talked to yong on phone . he so funny . omg i missed the times with him last time . ohno , i can't go and think of him too much .

You didn't even notice i was gone .

OMG , i have been eating so much this month ): cfm gain weight . D: ! february must eat lesser , save more money le . eew . 

 I WANNA GO SHOPPING , SERIOUSLY .

WEAKPOINT ):

haihai peepos . some dumbass blame me for not updating my blog , in the end he also never update . hmph ! okayokay . hmm . today suppose have choir . then i said i doing class deco will late , around 4.10 decided to go . i goodgirl never pon ^^ . during sectionals i keep run off find liangkuok ernest chinhong they all , LOL . too bored . then dun wanna sing , and voice cmi , totally . hmm . slackslack . then now still flooded with homework . #R$#!$@!# . next monday and tuesday got chemistry and math test . fk the school ! spoil me chinese new year ): . after chinese new year still got moremoremoremore test to come . saddiewo . im lyke officially pok kai now k . zomg . z . 


p-p-p-poker face ~
random much :D . 

quite long ago pic o; . i look chubbily-fat . tsk .

i seriously have a feeling my legs are getting thicker . bad sign ): . needa cut down on things i eat . omg i SEEM so weight conscious but i still eat & eat & eat . hais .
aiyoooo , sarah ah . you angry at cheryl and kayyee ? you okay a not . dun liddat la . sandra dun keep thinking you left out la . wei shen mo wo men mei chi zhe yang de .

I'm leaving cuz you never ask me to stay .

the icecream pretty anotz ?!

today at school canteen buy de ! hehe . :D . nice ley . vanilla + chocolate . omg i eat so much recently cfm gain weight ): 

monday 

hmm , dun rmb dunno much , but ate with eric for lunch at amk . ask javier come he say he grounded . eek . YOU GO OUT ALSO NO ONE WILL STALK YOU AND CHECK ON YOUR RIGHTZZZ ? okay , ate sumohouse . he treat me ! HEHE . free lunch ! then slackslack awhile . zomg , his friend so funny , lyke so scared of him . HAHAH . LAUGHDIE . 

tuesday .

choir , kinda slacked . no voice . taugh jasmine , sec 3 , she transfer from softball to choir cuz she sensitive skin or smth . hmm  , i sing dao voice crack , omg gg . 

today . 

finefine . hmm , after school went with cheryl to sumo house and she paid 3/4 of my meal HEHEH . ily . :D . then we talked for lyke 1 hour plus . omg so fun . hehe . scared manymany things . hmm . she's my safekeeper for my inside thoughts and secrets :B

msn conver with javier so imba , i so imba.   EH IMY LA . meet up soon ley ? dun lazy text ! what kinda excuse is this ): only when i online then we talk lots  then i say wan call you , you say you wan sleep awhile ! -'- 

ohno , i should not be talking to you so much ): . but you sit beside me , what choice do i have , ): ! feels so wrong .